When you are healing through this trauma dumpster fire you decided so courageously to dive into, you want it to be a book you read, a thought you process and end scene. Unfortunately, it is so much more than that.  The way I look at it, now a year into my journey relates to a load of laundry. Yup, laundry. My life is so thrilling on a Friday night in my 40s. I went to wash a load of clothes, to find a load of clothes already existed in that space, belonging to someone who was